婆婆訴苦 The Grandmother's Grief
婆婆道:「你怎麼曉得來尋我?」玄奘道:「是我娘著我來尋婆婆。我娘有書在此,又有香環一隻。」那婆婆接了書並香環,放聲痛哭道:「我兒為功名到此,我只道他背義忘恩,那知他被人謀死。且喜得皇天憐念,不絕我兒之後,今日還有孫子來尋我。」玄奘問:「婆婆的眼,如何都昏了?」婆婆道:「我因思量你父親,終日懸望,不見他來,因此上哭得兩眼都昏了。」婆婆道:「你怎么晓得来寻我?」玄奘道:「是我娘着我来寻婆婆。我娘有书在此,又有香环一只。」那婆婆接了书并香环,放声痛哭道:「我儿为功名到此,我只道他背义忘恩,那知他被人谋死。且喜得皇天怜念,不绝我儿之后,今日还有孙子来寻我。」玄奘问:「婆婆的眼,如何都昏了?」婆婆道:「我因思量你父亲,终日悬望,不见他来,因此上哭得两眼都昏了。」
逐句解 Line by line
The grandmother said, 'How did you come to know to seek me?'
曉得, to have come to know, with 得 as the unstressed de. She has been forgotten for eighteen years, and her first response is not joy but bewilderment that anybody knew where to look.
Xuanzang said, 'It was my mother who sent me to seek you, grandmother.'
著 here is zhuó, to set somebody to a task — a third reading for a character that has already been zhe and zháo in this chapter. My mother sent me: the answer is that somebody remembered.
'My mother has a letter here, and an incense-ring besides.'
一隻, one of them, singular. A letter and a ring — and for a woman who cannot see, the ring is the part that does the work.
The grandmother took the letter and the ring, and crying aloud wept:
放聲, letting the voice out, is the exact opposite of the 含淚, tears held in, that his mother managed at the riverside. Nobody here has appearances to keep up.
'My son went for fame and office and came to this; I only thought he had turned his back on duty and forgotten kindness — who would have known he had been murdered?'
Here is the wound underneath the blindness. 我只道, I always assumed: she has spent eighteen years believing her son abandoned her. 背義忘恩, turning your back on duty and forgetting what you owe, is a serious charge, and she has been quietly making it all this time. 為功名 takes 為 as wèi, for the sake of; 那知 takes 那 as the question word nǎ, in the sense of how was I to know.
'Yet I am glad that Heaven took pity and did not cut off my son's line —'
不絕, did not cut off, and 後 here means descendants, what comes after. In a world where the worst thing that can befall a family is simply to stop, the grandson standing in front of her is not consolation. He is repair.
'today there is even a grandson come to seek me.'
孫子, grandson, with 子 unstressed as zi; 還有, there is even, takes 還 as hái. The feeling sits in that 還: after all of it, there is still this.
Xuanzang asked, 'Grandmother, how is it your eyes are both gone blind?'
都 is dōu, both of them. He asks about her eyes, which is the first thing anybody has asked her in years.
The grandmother said, 'Out of longing for your father, day after day I gazed for him and he did not come, and so I wept till both my eyes went dark.'
思量, to think a thing over and over, takes 量 as liáng. 懸望 is hanging on the lookout, waiting with your hopes suspended. Then the cause, stated as flatly as a diagnosis: 哭得兩眼都昏了, wept until both eyes went dark, with 得 as de and 都 as dōu. She did not lose her sight to age. She cried herself blind waiting for a man who was already at the bottom of a river.
The heaviest thing in this reunion is a confession. For eighteen years Madam Zhang has believed her son abandoned her — 背義忘恩, turned his back on duty and forgot what he owed. That is what the murder actually did to her. It did not only take her son; it made her think badly of him for the rest of her life, and there was nobody left who could correct it.
Her gladness, when it arrives, is not for herself. Heaven 不絕我兒之後, did not cut off her son's line: the family goes on, and the young man in front of her is the proof of it. Then he asks about her eyes, and she answers with something closer to a case history than a lament. She watched the road, he never came, and she wept until she could not see.
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