第三十四回 · 心拜此怪 Bowing, in His Heart, to This Fiend — Journey to the West

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心拜此怪 Bowing, in His Heart, to This Fiend

心xīn卻què想xiǎng道dào：「老lǎo孫sūn既jì顯xiǎn手shǒu段duàn，變biàn做zuò小xiǎo妖yāo，來lái請qǐng這zhè老lǎo怪guài，沒méi有yǒu個gè直zhí直zhí的de站zhàn了le說shuō話huà之zhī理lǐ，一yí定dìng見jiàn他tā磕kē頭tóu才cái是shì。我wǒ為wéi人rén做zuò了le一yì場chǎng好hǎo漢hàn，止zhǐ拜bài了le三sān個gè人rén：西xī天tiān拜bài佛fó祖zǔ；南nán海hǎi拜bài觀guān音yīn；兩liǎng界jiè山shān師shī父fù救jiù了le我wǒ，我wǒ拜bài了le他tā四sì拜bài。為wèi他tā使shǐ碎suì六liù葉yè連lián肝gān肺fèi，用yòng盡jìn三sān毛máo七qī孔kǒng心xīn。一yí卷juàn經jīng能néng值zhí幾jǐ何hé？今jīn日rì卻què教jiào我wǒ去qù拜bài此cǐ怪guài。若ruò不bú跪guì拜bài，必bì定dìng走zǒu了le風fēng汛xùn。苦kǔ啊a！算suàn來lái只zhǐ為wèi師shī父fù受shòu困kùn，故gù使shǐ我wǒ受shòu辱rǔ於yú人rén。」心xīn却què想xiǎng道dào：「老lǎo孙sūn既jì显xiǎn手shǒu段duàn，变biàn做zuò小xiǎo妖yāo，来lái请qǐng这zhè老lǎo怪guài，没méi有yǒu个gè直zhí直zhí的de站zhàn了le说shuō话huà之zhī理lǐ，一yí定dìng见jiàn他tā磕kē头tóu才cái是shì。我wǒ为wéi人rén做zuò了le一yì场chǎng好hǎo汉hàn，止zhǐ拜bài了le三sān个gè人rén：西xī天tiān拜bài佛fó祖zǔ；南nán海hǎi拜bài观guān音yīn；两liǎng界jiè山shān师shī父fù救jiù了le我wǒ，我wǒ拜bài了le他tā四sì拜bài。为wèi他tā使shǐ碎suì六liù叶yè连lián肝gān肺fèi，用yòng尽jìn三sān毛máo七qī孔kǒng心xīn。一yí卷juàn经jīng能néng值zhí几jǐ何hé？今jīn日rì却què教jiào我wǒ去qù拜bài此cǐ怪guài。若ruò不bú跪guì拜bài，必bì定dìng走zǒu了le风fēng汛xùn。苦kǔ啊a！算suàn来lái只zhǐ为wèi师shī父fù受shòu困kùn，故gù使shǐ我wǒ受shòu辱rǔ于yú人rén。」

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心xīn卻què想xiǎng道dào：「老lǎo孫sūn既jì顯xiǎn手shǒu段duàn，變biàn做zuò小xiǎo妖yāo，來lái請qǐng這zhè老lǎo怪guài，沒méi有yǒu個gè直zhí直zhí的de站zhàn了le說shuō話huà之zhī理lǐ，一yí定dìng見jiàn他tā磕kē頭tóu才cái是shì。心xīn却què想xiǎng道dào：「老lǎo孙sūn既jì显xiǎn手shǒu段duàn，变biàn做zuò小xiǎo妖yāo，来lái请qǐng这zhè老lǎo怪guài，没méi有yǒu个gè直zhí直zhí的de站zhàn了le说shuō话huà之zhī理lǐ，一yí定dìng见jiàn他tā磕kē头tóu才cái是shì。

Yet in his heart he thought: “Old Monkey, having shown his powers and changed into a little imp to invite this old fiend, cannot decently stand bolt upright to speak; I must surely kowtow to her — that is proper.”

直直的站了 (zhí zhí de zhàn le), "standing bolt upright." 一定見他磕頭 (yí dìng jiàn tā kē tóu), "must surely kowtow to her" — 磕頭, to knock the head on the ground, the obeisance the disguise demands.

我wǒ為wéi人rén做zuò了le一yì場chǎng好hǎo漢hàn，止zhǐ拜bài了le三sān個gè人rén：西xī天tiān拜bài佛fó祖zǔ；南nán海hǎi拜bài觀guān音yīn；兩liǎng界jiè山shān師shī父fù救jiù了le我wǒ，我wǒ拜bài了le他tā四sì拜bài。為wèi他tā使shǐ碎suì六liù葉yè連lián肝gān肺fèi，用yòng盡jìn三sān毛máo七qī孔kǒng心xīn。我wǒ为wéi人rén做zuò了le一yì场chǎng好hǎo汉hàn，止zhǐ拜bài了le三sān个gè人rén：西xī天tiān拜bài佛fó祖zǔ；南nán海hǎi拜bài观guān音yīn；两liǎng界jiè山shān师shī父fù救jiù了le我wǒ，我wǒ拜bài了le他tā四sì拜bài。为wèi他tā使shǐ碎suì六liù叶yè连lián肝gān肺fèi，用yòng尽jìn三sān毛máo七qī孔kǒng心xīn。

“In all my life as a man, playing the hero, I've bowed to but three: in the Western Heaven I bowed to the Buddha; at the Southern Sea I bowed to Guanyin; and at Two-Frontiers Mountain my master delivered me, and to him I made four bows. For him I have worn my six-leafed liver and lungs to shreds and spent my three-haired, seven-orificed heart.”

我為人 (wǒ wéi rén), "in my being a man" — 為 the verb wéi, "to act as, to be"; but 為他 (wèi tā), "for his sake" — 為 read wèi, "for." 拜觀音 (bài guān yīn), "bowed to Guanyin" — 觀 read guān.

一yí卷juàn經jīng能néng值zhí幾jǐ何hé？今jīn日rì卻què教jiào我wǒ去qù拜bài此cǐ怪guài。若ruò不bú跪guì拜bài，必bì定dìng走zǒu了le風fēng汛xùn。苦kǔ啊a！算suàn來lái只zhǐ為wèi師shī父fù受shòu困kùn，故gù使shǐ我wǒ受shòu辱rǔ於yú人rén。」一yí卷juàn经jīng能néng值zhí几jǐ何hé？今jīn日rì却què教jiào我wǒ去qù拜bài此cǐ怪guài。若ruò不bú跪guì拜bài，必bì定dìng走zǒu了le风fēng汛xùn。苦kǔ啊a！算suàn来lái只zhǐ为wèi师shī父fù受shòu困kùn，故gù使shǐ我wǒ受shòu辱rǔ于yú人rén。」

“What is one roll of scripture worth? And today it makes me go and bow to this fiend. Yet if I do not kneel and bow, the game is surely up. Bitter! Reckoning it out, it is only because my master is in distress that I am made to suffer this disgrace at another's hands.”

今日卻教我 (jīn rì què jiào wǒ), "today it makes me" — 教 read jiào, "to cause." 只為師父受困 (zhǐ wèi shī fu shòu kùn), "only because my master is in distress" — 為 read wèi, causal.

總評 Commentary

This soliloquy is the moral center of the chapter's comic surface. The proud Monkey — who counts on one hand the beings he has ever honored: Buddha, Guanyin, and Tripitaka — must now perform a kowtow to a demon-crone, and the humiliation is genuine because his pride is genuine. The tally of his three obeisances is not boast but self-definition; to add a demon to that list, even in pretense, costs him something the reader is made to feel.

The visceral idiom of devotion — a six-leafed liver worn to shreds, a three-haired, seven-orificed heart spent utterly — measures Wukong's service to Tripitaka in the currency of his own body. And the soliloquy's final reckoning, 只為師父受困，故使我受辱於人, locates the whole indignity in love rather than compulsion: he stoops not because he is beaten but because his master suffers. The disguise will bow; the pride will not; and the loyalty that reconciles them is the truest thing on the page.